Season 2 - Episode 7

SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT

MEREDITH VOICE OVER : Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. 

 Funny thing is once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking; the harder it becomes to know what to say or how to ask for what we really need.

CRISTINA: Ah hmm. Hey so um after rounds we have something to show you. 

IZZIE (looking at Meredith closely): Mer? Meredith can you hear us? 

CRISTINA: She’s not deaf. 

IZZIE: Well she looks weird. 

CRISTINA: Well what did you expect? Derek didn’t pick her, she’s gone mental. 

IZZIE: Meredith have you gone mental? 

MEREDITH: I have not gone mental. 

CRISTINA: See, okay she’s fine. (excited) We have something to show you. So whatever you do, do not get assigned to a surgery this morning. 

ALEX: What’s up with you? 

IZZIE (really angry): I put on a dress! I did my hair! I had one night off in 2 weeks and I used it on you. And what do I get? Nothing. No respect. No apology. You couldn’t even be bothered to … kiss me goodnight. You know what you’re a coward and you’re just as shallow as you seem. So I am done trying to be your friend or whatever. I’m over it. 

(She walks off down the hallway through some double doors. Alex looks stunned) 

NICOLE: She’s really mad at you. 

CRISTINA: Bailey knows. 

DR. BURKE: Knows what? 

CRISTINA (she stresses the 2nd word): She knows. 

DR. BURKE: Well O’Malley knows, why not Bailey? 

CRISTINA: So you didn’t tell her? 

DR. BURKE: Why would I do that? 

CRISTINA: This is bad. 

DR. BURKE: We have to manage the damage ourselves before this thing spins to far out of control. And that means coming clean to the chief. 

CRISTINA: What? 

DR. BURKE: If we come out into the open, then no one has anything to say. 

CRISTINA: No, no, no way. No way. 

DR. BURKE: That’s the only way. 

CRISTINA: No. 

DR. BAILEY: Turn around. Walk away. 

DR. SHEPARD: From what? 

DR. BAILEY: From my intern. 

DR. SHEPARD: But I wasn’t … 

DR. BAILEY: Uh yeah, yes you were. Come on, look. You can’t do this. You don’t have the right. Not anymore. 

DR. SHEPARD: I just wanna find out if she’s okay. 

DR. BAILEY: No she’s not! She’s a human traffic accident and everybody is slowing down to look at the wreckage. She’s doing the best she can with what she has left. Look I know you can’t see this because you’re in it but you can’t help her now. It’ll only make it worse. Walk away. Leave her to mend. 

(Dr. Shepard sighs but doesn’t move. Dr. Bailey gets exasperated) 

DR. BAILEY: Go on! 

NICOLE: It’s not like I don’t want the operation. I do you know. I want things. It’s just … what if I’m not ready? 

ALEX: Ready for what? 

NICOLE: For everything. For taking care of myself. For being on my own. For sex. For love. I’ve never had a boyfriend. I’ve never even been kissed. I’m like the oldest living college prospective not to go to first base. 

ALEX: Nah. 

NICOLE: It’s mortifying. 

ALEX: There are way older losers than you. Trust me. 

NICOLE: Alex. Would you kiss me? 

ALEX (chuckles): Wh, What? 

NICOLE: I know you’re a doctor, I’m your patient and, and it’s against the rules but I would never tell anyone. 

ALEX: For a kiss to be really good you want it to mean something. You want it be with someone you can’t get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. (Nicole opens her eyes) A kiss so hot, so deep you never wanna come up for air. You can’t cheat your first kiss Nicole. Trust me you don’t want to. Cause when you find the right person to first kiss. (He grins) It’s everything! 

Meredith voice Over - Some things we just don’t want to hear. 

 And some things we say because we can’t be silent any longer.

 Some things are more than what you say. They’re what you do. 

Some things you say because there’s no other choice.

Some things you keep to yourself. 

And not too often … but every now and then … 

… some things simply speak for themselves. 





-end-

Season 2 - Episode 6

INTO YOU LIKE A RAIN

MEREDITH: I actually said pick me. Right? I did. Pick me? 
JOE: I think it’s romantic. MEREDITH: It’s not romantic Joe. It’s horrifying! Horribly horrifying. Carrie at the prom with pig’s blood horrifying. 
JOE: Okay fine it’s horrifying. But Carrie took out her entire senior class as revenge. Gotta say like that in a girl. 

MEREDITH: I said pick me! 

MEREDITH VOICE OVER : In general people can be categorized in one of two ways. 

Those who love surprises. And those who don’t. 

I don’t. 

I’ve never met a surgeon that enjoys a surprise. Because as surgeons we like to be in the know. We have to be in the know because we aren’t people die and law suits happen. Am I rambling? I think I’m rambling. 


Okay. So my point actually … and I do have one. Has nothing to do with surprises or death or lawsuits or surgeons. 

My point is this whoever said what you don’t know can’t hurt you was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

Okay fine. Maybe it’s the second worst. 

DR. BURKE: Cristina. You paged me? 

CRISTINA (upset): If I don’t find this leg the chief is gonna cut me from this program. And I cannot go back home Burke. It is too sunny in Los Angeles. It’s sunny everyday!

DR. BURKE: And you paged me because? 

CRISTINA (loud): I need you to help me find the leg! (more calm now) … I checked the board. You’re not in surgery right? (Burke looks confused) You’re my boyfriend. I mean I know I don’t have much experience with this kind of thing but (Dr. Burke tries not to smile) aren’t boyfriends supposed to help in situations like this. 

DR. BURKE (serious): Cristina, when we’re on duty I can’t be your boyfriend. 

CRISTINA: Okay, so ah when we’re on duty I can have sex with some one else? 

DR. BURKE: Dr. Yang. I’m walking away now. 

CRISTINA: Fine. Fine! But when the chief cuts me, you might re-think this! 

ADDISON: So have you made a decision yet Dr. Stevens?

IZZIE: I’m sorry?

ADDISON: Whether or not you’re going to … hate me? (Izzie trying to put a pen in her pocket looks up at this) You’re Meredith’s friend. I’m the wicked witch who came in and ruined her life and cheated on doctor … wait what is it that you guys call him?

IZZIE (uncomfortable): Mc Dreamy.

ADDISON: Right. God, doesn’t that embarrass him?
 

IZZIE: Yeah. I think it does.

ADDISON: Yeah well by all rights you should hate me.

IZZIE: I guess.

ADDISON: Except that I’m going to be staying in town for a while.
 

IZZIE: You are.

ADDISON: Yes. And you show a real gift with my specialty. And I have a lot to teach if you wanna learn. … So?

IZZIE (shrugs even more uncomfortable): So?

ADDISON: So when you decide how important it is for you to hate me, let me know.

DANNY: Did she ah … did she suffer?

DR. SHEPARD: No. Her injuries prevented her from … no she wasn’t in any pain.

DANNY: Good. That’s …. …. ….

DR. SHEPARD (difficulty speaking): She asked me ah to tell you that … that she wanted you to know, that if love were enough … that if love were enough that she’d still be here with you. 

MEREDITH'S VOICE OVER: As surgeons there are so many things we have to know.

 We have to know what it takes.

 We have to know how to take care of our patients.

And how to take care of each other.

 Eventually we even  have to figure out how to take care of ourselves.

As surgeons we have to be in the know.

But as human beings, sometimes its better to stay in the dark.

Because in the dark there maybe fear…

… but there’s also hope. 




-END-

Season 2 - Episode 5

BRING THE PAIN

MEREDITH VOICE OVER (MVO): Pain comes in all forms. 

 The small tinge. A bit of soreness. The random pain. The normal pains we live with everyday. 

Then there’s the kind of pain you can’t ignore. 

Makes the rest of the world fade away. 

Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. 

How we manage our pain is up to us. 

 Pain. We anaesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. 

And for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. 

MEREDITH (loud): Seriously! (Cut to Izzie who is still lying down on George’s bed. George rolls over) 

GEORGE: This is a very small bed. (Meredith is now lying next to George on his other side. George is squished in the middle, still half asleep.) 

MEREDITH: He’s a brain surgeon. 

IZZIE: I look fantastic! I shaved my legs! 

MEREDITH: He’s a brain surgeon. How can he be so brainless? (George sighs) 

IZZIE: Hello! Seriously! 

MEREDITH: Seriously! (George pats Meredith’s & Izzie’s shoulders simultaneously) 

GEORGE: Ssh. Sleep. 

DR. BAILEY: Grey, your mother’s being discharged this evening. You’ve made arrangements or do you need more time? 

MEREDITH: The nursing home is coming at 8. 

DR. BAILEY (starts walking off): All right then you’re with Shepard. Derek Shepard today. 


DR. BAILEY : Hey. Life is short. Times are hard. The road is long with many a winding turn.  He asked for you. Take it up with him. 

DR. SHEPARD: Meredith. 

MEREDITH: Your wife is looking for you. 

DR. SHEPARD (sighs): This is hard for me Meredith. 

MEREDITH: Well let me make it easy then. I’m not gonna be that woman. The one who breaks up a marriage or begs you to want me. You can sign the papers or you cannot. The choice is yours. Either way when it comes to this relationship I’m out. (Dr. Shepard looks at her) Now where’s this patient I’m supposed to be helping you with. 

DR. SHEPARD (points behind him): Down here. 

MEREDITH (interrupts): Look do you need me for anything else work related? 

(Dr. Shepard nods to himself suddenly angry and annoyed.) 

DR. SHEPARD: Look I was married for 11 years. Addison is my family. That is 11 thanksgivings, 11 birthdays and 11 Christmases. And then one day I’m supposed to sign a piece of paper and end my family? A person doesn’t do that. Not without a little hesitation. I’m entitled to a little uncertainty here! At least a moment to understand the magnitude to what it means to cut somebody out of my life. I’m entitled to a least one moment  of painful doubt. And a little understanding from you would be nice. 

ALEX: So dude what’s the deal with Izzie? 

GEORGE: She shaved her legs for you. 

ALEX: And?? 

GEORGE: And you didn’t even kiss her goodnight. 

PETE: She shaved her legs for you and you didn’t follow through? 

ALEX: Hey I follow through. I always follow through. 

GEORGE : You didn’t last night. 

ALEX: Mind your own business. 

GEORGE: Mind?  She had expectations. Women have expectations. And you didn’t meet them. Hey I live with these women and every time you guys don’t meet their expectations, I have to hear about it. I didn’t get any sleep last night. So you know it is my business. 

MEREDITH: I lied. I’m not out … of this relationship. I’m in. I’m so in it’s humiliating because here I am begging… 

DR. SHEPARD : Meredith. 

MEREDITH: Shut up. You say Meredith and I yell remember? 

DR. SHEPARD: Yeah. 


MEREDITH: Okay here it is. Your choice. It’s simple. (she starts getting teary and emotional) Her or me. And I’m sure she’s really great. But Derek… I love you…. in a really, really big … pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window…unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me. 


MERDETIH: I’ll be at Joe’s tonight. So if you do decide to sign the papers meet me there. 

DR. SHEPARD: Bailey. Tell me what to do.

DR. SHEPARD: God why does this have to be so hard?

DR. BAILEY: It’s not hard. It’s painful but it’s not hard. You know what to do already. If you didn’t you wouldn’t be in this much pain. 

CRISTINA: So here’s where we are. I work too much. I’m competitive. I’m always right. And I snore.

(Dr. Burke looks confused)

DR. BURKE: What?

CRISTINA: I’m trying here.

DR. BUKRE: Ohhhhh. Oh. … (realization dawns) Oh! Oh.
 

CRISTINA: Yeah. (she smiles)

DR. BURKE: So? 

CRISTINA: Okay. We’re a couple. Whatever. Don’t make a big deal about it.

Meredith's Voice Over: Pain. You just have to ride it out.  Hope it goes away on its own. Hope that the wound that caused it heals.

There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.

Most of the time pain can be managed.

But sometimes the pain gets to you when you least expect it.

It’s way below the belt and doesn’t let up.

Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can’t out run it. And life always make more.




-end-

Season 2 - Episode 4

DENY, DENY, DENY

MEREDITH VOICE OVER (MVO): The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we’re tired; we deny we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed and most importantly we deny that we’re in denial. 

We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. 

We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth…right in front of our faces. 

GEORGE: I don’t know when I left Cristina said she was okay. 

IZZIE: Nobody goes what she went through and is totally over it by now. 

GEORGE: Cristina can. 

MEREDITH: She’s fine. 

IZZIE: Too fine. She’s cold. 

GEORGE: No she’s hardcore. She’s got ice in her veins. She does what she has to do to get through it. 

IZZIE: She lost a baby. She lost a fallopian tube and she’s acting like she doesn’t even care. She’s all hello, I’m totally fine person. I mean she’s my friend too but she’s acting like she has no emotions or warmth, like she’s missing a soul. 

GEORGE: God she’s gonna make a great surgeon. 

IZZIE: George! 

GEORGE: It’s true. You show no weakness, you make it to the top. 

MEREDITH: Some people just keep their feelings to themselves. 

MEREDITH: Addison gave Derek divorce papers which is good. I mean she’s still here being Addison but it’s not like I’m jealous or anything. 

CRISTINA (looking at the chart): That’s odd. 

MEREDITH: That’s odd I’m not jealous? 

CRISTINA: No you have every right to be jealous. It’s your territory and she’s peeing all over it. (looks back at the chart) What’s odd is Burke’s patient. She’s been in 4 other hospitals this year. You know something’s not right. 

MEREDITH: You seem awfully interested in Burke’s patient. 

CRISTINA: This has nothing to do with Burke. 

MEREDITH: Cristina you lost a fallopian tube, a baby and a boyfriend all in one day. You have the right to be upset. 

CRISTINA: And you’re losing Mc Dreamy to his perfect wife. You have a right to be jealous. 

MEREDITH: I did not lose Mc Dreamy. Divorce papers, remember? And I’m not jealous. 

CRISTINA: And I’m not upset. 

Meredith's Voice Over: Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. 

And when the damn bursts all you can do is swim. 

The world of pretend is cage. Not a cocoon. 

 We can only lie to ourselves for so long. 

We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn’t change the truth. 

 Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial … and face the world head on gun’s blazing. 

 Denial. It’s not just a river in Egypt. It’s a freaking

ocean. 

: So how do you keep from drowning in it? 

-end-