Season 2 - Episode 4

DENY, DENY, DENY

MEREDITH VOICE OVER (MVO): The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we’re tired; we deny we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed and most importantly we deny that we’re in denial. 

We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. 

We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth…right in front of our faces. 

GEORGE: I don’t know when I left Cristina said she was okay. 

IZZIE: Nobody goes what she went through and is totally over it by now. 

GEORGE: Cristina can. 

MEREDITH: She’s fine. 

IZZIE: Too fine. She’s cold. 

GEORGE: No she’s hardcore. She’s got ice in her veins. She does what she has to do to get through it. 

IZZIE: She lost a baby. She lost a fallopian tube and she’s acting like she doesn’t even care. She’s all hello, I’m totally fine person. I mean she’s my friend too but she’s acting like she has no emotions or warmth, like she’s missing a soul. 

GEORGE: God she’s gonna make a great surgeon. 

IZZIE: George! 

GEORGE: It’s true. You show no weakness, you make it to the top. 

MEREDITH: Some people just keep their feelings to themselves. 

MEREDITH: Addison gave Derek divorce papers which is good. I mean she’s still here being Addison but it’s not like I’m jealous or anything. 

CRISTINA (looking at the chart): That’s odd. 

MEREDITH: That’s odd I’m not jealous? 

CRISTINA: No you have every right to be jealous. It’s your territory and she’s peeing all over it. (looks back at the chart) What’s odd is Burke’s patient. She’s been in 4 other hospitals this year. You know something’s not right. 

MEREDITH: You seem awfully interested in Burke’s patient. 

CRISTINA: This has nothing to do with Burke. 

MEREDITH: Cristina you lost a fallopian tube, a baby and a boyfriend all in one day. You have the right to be upset. 

CRISTINA: And you’re losing Mc Dreamy to his perfect wife. You have a right to be jealous. 

MEREDITH: I did not lose Mc Dreamy. Divorce papers, remember? And I’m not jealous. 

CRISTINA: And I’m not upset. 

Meredith's Voice Over: Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. 

And when the damn bursts all you can do is swim. 

The world of pretend is cage. Not a cocoon. 

 We can only lie to ourselves for so long. 

We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn’t change the truth. 

 Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial … and face the world head on gun’s blazing. 

 Denial. It’s not just a river in Egypt. It’s a freaking

ocean. 

: So how do you keep from drowning in it? 

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